Another Five Things…

Tagged by Ha Ana Za..thanks Arima..

1-(I hope nobody reads this except Arabs) I become feminist the minute I reach the Syrian borders. The worst thing I hate about Syrian community is the fact that it is sexist. If Omar feels naked because Syrians, no longer Syrian bloggers, read his blog, I feel naked (physically) as I walk the street in Syria. Many girls managed to get over this issue, but I couldn't. I still get nervous, self-conscious about my whole body, especially when I am FORCED to hear sexual terms. It is serious and I do have issue with it.
I have to say that the Lebanese, Beirut at least, is totally unsexist in THIS manner, they are so but in a different way.



2-Like Omar also, I am attached to virtual friends than to "real" ones. In Syria, it is really hard to find people that are detached from the traditional reading of "society", "relationship", "friends", "joke"…
I usually avoid classifying things, but in Damascus, at least, people can be classified into "traditional" whom are a majority, and "fake liberal". Now the fake liberal (I'm one of them) are really sick. Of course few people managed to come up with a healthy individual detachment from both traditional heritage, and from adapted liberal western (not necessarily western) ideas. In Syria, to be liberal, is NOT to be traditional. So you are-not rather that you are.



3-I don't like to go night clubs with groups, I like to go on a date, or alone, usually I go alone. And I so much enjoy dancing alone, giving single guys hard time as they can only watch, not allowed to join;)




4-I boycutt American products, especially those companies that run campaigns to support Israel.





5-Though I fully support Hezbolla in their existential war against Israel, I so much disagree with their attempt to pursue their goals in Lebanon with a chaotic strike. And here I would like to clarify that Hezbolla is NOT what it seemed. Witnesses say that there were civilians who were Christians (supporting Lebanese Troops) and actually prevented the latter from pursuing a fight against Awnis. The people in Lebanon are now more than ever aware of the dangerousness of a strike in such tension time. The people themselves are against these two camps. As I fully agree with the strike option, I disagree its practice in such way. And when I say such way, I am not hinting at the shootings, for Hezbolla is not a militia, it is a resistance. Lebanese Troops, Junblatis and Hariri's are the militias, the kings of war. We have a sacred cause, let's find the right way to practice it. Breaking cars (their own by the way) and burning tires is never the way to do it.




Now, for my first victims, I tag these fellow bloggers..

Ziad
Dancing Solo
Restless in Dubai
Nour
Omar
Amre
Andre
MarxistfromLebanon


Yalla lachouf..

وفد المعروفيين الأحرار يزور الأسيرين المحررين في الجولان السوري المحتل

28/01/2007 23:26
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زار وفد من حركة المعروفيين الأحرار* يتقدمه عدد من رجال الدين وقادة الحركة التي تمثل الأصالة والنهج الوطني الملتزم بقضايا شعبه، الجولان السوري المحتل، يوم أمس، والتقى الأسيرين المحررين من سجون الاحتلال الإسرائيلي، عباس صالح عماشة و كمال عطالله الولي، وقدم لهما التهاني والتبريكات بمناسبة تحررهما.

وقد ضم الوفد كل من السادة سعيد نفاع رئيس حركة المعروفين الأحرار والسيد حاتم الحلبي نائب رئيس الحركة وجلال سعد وحمد صلالحة والشيخ سلمان نفاع وسليمان عطيلة والشاعر المحامي سامي مهنا ونهاد ملحم، واسعد قويقس والشيخ كنج عزة والشيخ علي النبواني والشيخ كمال غانم والشيخ سلمان العنتير ومحمد نفاع . إضافة الى عدد من رجال الدين مؤييدي الميثاق المشايخ : يوسف نبواني وصلاح نبواني وحسن صابر غانم ونسيب قزل وسليم غانم وهايل عبيد وسليم حمود واسعد عويضة.

وقد وصل الوفد الى منزل الأسير المحرر عباس عماشة حيث كان في استقباله عدد من المواطنين من قرية بقعاثا ووفد جمعية أصدقاء المعتقل والسجين السياسي( جمعية ابو هشام ) حيث تحدث بداية السيد حاتم الحلبي باسم الوفد مرحبا بالأسير بين أهله وشعبه ومستعرضا جانبا من المسيرة الوطنية والنضالية لأحرار الجولان مؤكدا "على ان مسيرة صمود وعطاء أحرار الجولان هي وسام شرف يحمله كل الأحرار على صدورهم بدءً من النضال والثورة ضد الاحتلال التركي والفرنسي ومرورا في مشروع إسرائيل بسلخ أبناء الطائفة المعروفية الأحرار عن انتمائهم القومي والوطني وليس انتهاءً في إفشال مشروع تجنيس واسرلة عرب الجولان الأحرار الذي لو نجح لا سمح الله لكانت إسرائيل قد نجحت في إخضاعنا جميعا". وأضاف السيد حاتم الحلبي" إن كافة هذه المشاريع قد سقطت مشروعا تلو الأخر بفضل نضال وصمود ووعي سكان هذه المنطقة في الجولان والجليل والكرمل ولبنان وفلسطين، وللجولان السوري المحتل الفضل الأكبر في إسقاط المشروع الإسرائيلي في منطقتنا" واختتم كلمته بتحية نضال سكان الجولان وصمود أسراه ومعتقليه في سجون الاحتلال.

من جهته أثنى الأسير المحرر عباس عماشة على أعضاء الوفد وعلى مبادرتهم الطيبة مؤكدا على وحدانية مسيرة التحرر والمصير المشترك في النضال ضد الاحتلال بكافة أشكاله.

بعد ذلك توجه أعضاء الوفد إلى منزل الأسير المحرر كمال الولي، حيث رحب كل من السادة هايل ابو جبل الشيخ عبدالله القيش بالوفد مؤكدين إن مسيرة التواصل والنضال والصمود لا تتجزأ في الجولان وفلسطين ولبنان وسوريا من اجل انتزاع الحقوق المسلوبة.

وألقى الشاعر والمحامي سامي مهنا كلمة باسم الوفد تضمنت التهاني القلبية للأسرى المحررين بانتزاع حريتهم، مشيدا بما مثله ويمثله أحرار الجولان من اسما وعنوانا للكفاح الوطني ضد الظلم والقهر والاحتلال.

رئيس جمعية أصدقاء المعتقل والسجين السياسي رائف حبيب الله من جهته ثمن على الدور النضالي لأسرى الجولان في مسيرة الحركة الوطنية الاعتقالية في سجون الاحتلال، مؤكدا على ان ارث المرحوم ابو هشام سيبقى منارة ورمزا لتعزيز صمود الأسرى بكافة مجالات الدعم. واختتم حفل الاستقبال بكلمة للاسير المحرر كمال الولي الذي شكر ورجال الدين خاصة، مؤكدا على ان تصدى سكان الجولان للاحتلال الإسرائيلي ومشاريعه هو ميثاق وعهد تتناقله الأجيال جيلا بعد جيل حتى معانقة شمس الحرية والتحرر، وأضاف نحن جزء منكم وانتم جزءً منا، لان شراكتنا النضالية واحدة لا تتجزأ فالعدو واحد والمخطط التصفوي واحد.

بعد ذلك توجه الوفد إلى بلدة مجدل شمس لتقديم العزاء بالمرحوم الشاب معتز سليمان ابو صالح في مقر مركز الشام.



* حركة المعروفيين الأحرار هي حركة عربية تسعى إلى ترسيخ وتثبيت الانتماء العربي الفلسطيني للعرب الدروز في الداخل. وتضع نصب أعينها رفض التجنيد الإجباري ألقسري المفروض على الشباب العرب الدروز. وتعتبر أن الهوية العربية هي العامل الموحد والجامع لكل عرب الداخل. وتتصدى للتقسيمات الفئوية التي تسعى المؤسسة الصهيونية إلى ترسيخها.

"عرب48 وموقع الجولان/ أيمن أبو جبل"

Photos of Israel's Poison Balloons

Posted by BloggingBeirut




Further proof of Israel's latest Mass Murder activities in Lebanon.

It seems that the balloons over nabatiyeh were green, and in Tyr they were in different colors and with different markings. --Anthony

so Israel is now using the same tactics as the Nazis?

Nazi Gas Chambers = Israeli Poison Balloons.


By Annahar

That's Why I Love Lebanon

This is a video that some Lebanese bloggers have been sharing lately especially on the light of the chaotic events that has been surrounding Lebanon.

This video, though has been praised, is worth to add some notes on it.

It is not an academic video, and it is not intended to be so, however, it is acting as it is embracing the "truth", again, against "truths".

I realize it is difficult to be objective, detached, in politics, I myself have issues with it, but since the main goal of this video is educational, I think it should have educated, reconsidered itself first.

First of all, this is the description of the video broadcasted on google video:


A political documentary covering 30 years of war and post war in Lebanon. It highlights the real mistakes by the lebanese people throughout ... all » the Syrian and Israeli occupations. Different formats are used. War footage, drama and graphics. 14 minutes.


You can see that the noun "occupation" has been projected on two "forms", "levels" of occupations; Syrian and Israeli. One cannot speak of Israeli occupation of Palestine, the same why of Lebanon, or Syria. We are talking about the same "subject", same "verb" but different "objects".

The movie, unfortunately, continue with this classifying strategy "either/or". You cannot talk of Lebanese leaders as a one body. Not only with Lebanese politics, but essentialism, is dangerous, if one really wishes to pursue truth"es".

So Lebanon, or Lebanons, are bodies within this body.

Syrians did commit huge and unforgivable mistakes, so did the Palestinians, and the Lebanese. But the authorities puppeteers though the same, but with a different outfit and this time, the people of Lebanon is the major player (ex. 8th. March, 14th. March, Nahnu Strike) So if the movie is looking for a change, they should have addressed straightforwardly this major player, the people.

Though this movie at the end addresses YOU to changes the whole situation, and blames YOU, it really spends 10 minutes out of 14 on blaming other parties. It should have focused on this very YOU instead.

So YOU here, is not genuinely authentic.

One final note, then I'll start praising;), the idea of undermining the term "Arabism" altogether is also, an essentialist simplistic approach, as is the case with taking Arabism for granted as a given identity. Arabism is neither IS nor Not an identity, it is rather an ideology, as Marxism, a process and a very conscious one. So it is becoming a cliché, blame not the concept, but the adaptors.


Now, I did like the video, I am a big fan of documentaries, and of Lebanese NGOs. It might not be an academic video, but it is an excellent start towards the autonomy of Lebanon.

I like their constant attempts of addressing a flaw, I like their good use of media as expressing their national dilemmas, their activism...

That's one reason, why I love you, appreciate you, Lebanon.

Enjoy..

I've been Tagged

I've been tagged by Dubai Jazz few days ago, and haven't got the chance to respond due to the flu that sticked to me for the last few days. Since I am better now, Lebanon isn't, so it feels weird to post something fun, while i do not feel fun at all. All I can do is to pray for peace for Lebanon, is to hope. To the Lebanese civilians who lost their lives in the battle of another, may you rest in peace.

So here it goes..thank you Dubai Jazz..

1- Are you a principled person? Or are you pragmatic?
I tried to answer this question. I really couldn't. it is a troubeling question. I really don't k now.

2- Do you believe in people or in ideas?
This is a very good question. I always have believed in ideas (people within pages), but lately, I've been watching my Australian professor (I tend to watch him a lotJ) and how much he reads, yet, how much he cares about conversations, debates and dialogues. People, can be a very thought provoking advice, in terms of academy. But socially, I think I've learned they are essential to be around.

3- How good are you in separating what is business from what is personal?
Aah terrible, I have been studying in Lebanon for three years, and still I have to like my topic I'm writing on in order to be motivated. For example, lately we were asked to write a short paper on Walt Whitman. As an English literature graduate, ALL what we study is American Canon. So English Literature (texts written in English) becomes geography (texts written by English speaking people). Thus, in my paper, I have argued that Whitman is a racist bastard (he is). The good thing is that my professor is academic, so he is open to such arguments.

4- Do you have role models? How good are you in following their trajectory?
oh yes, many people inspire me, mainly Palestinian refugees. I know a lot of them, and their laughter is really different from any other. BTW, I get nervous of presentations, but all I have to do is to remember the Palestinian camps, you'd be surprised of the result. My role model ever is Dr. Azmi Bishara. I never stop thinking about him. I make sure that I read his articles, I have all his books, I try to develop, like him, a democratic Arabism. very tough though.

5- A British saying goes: “Manners maketh a man”, what else do you think makes a man ‘a Man’?
Well, what makes a man in a universal sense (cause Arab man is different from Chinese man) is really his activism towards humanity (broad word I know). So what makes an Arab man for me, is his activism towards Arab Cause, among other things;)

6- Do you believe in taking risk? Do you follow your guts feeling? Has it ever failed you?
oh yes, I am a fan of taking risks, that's why I think I sometimes get careless. I am hesitant in many cases (like buying another boots, deciding on a thesis topic, asking a question in class) but I do follow my guts a lot on a daily bases. and yes, it has failed me many times.

7- Have you ever been through a ‘paradigm shift’? if not, do you believe that such process exists?
I think I am now going through such phase; I have a pattern of being negative and miserable all the time. And I have been like that for 7 years, I thought that changing places, people might help, but it is all within. So I am trying to "reconstruct" this pattern. I am trying to see positiveness in life. I'm doing good so far.

8- Do you believe in unilateral love? Have you ever been through such experience?
I keep on falling in love with authors, professors and activists. Do I believe in it? does it matter? If I won't be loving Dr. Bishara, whom am I going to be in love with?

I have been in love with my Australian professor, I still get jealous when he thinks other female student is brighter than me, but I am managing;)

9- How good is your assimilation within your social sphere?
hmmm, not good, never has. See I get along easily with NICE SIMPLE people, but come to think if it, these people are really rare. Now a new tradition, or say, civilization is stemming out; this openness of being "frank and rude", of being "unorthodox and rude", of being "funny all the time". I think I find myself comfortable in an atmosphere that is conscious of its difficulties, yet, try to bring up joy and laughter. That's the magic of Palestinian camps. So much misery and abnormal circumstances of living, yet, their very eagerness if survival, makes my smile, or laughter, thus my assimilation, genuine.

10- Can you name some of your new year’s resolutions?
I need to finish up my thesis project. I am writing on Arabism, or on Arab Jews' literature. I am going back home, finding me a school to teach. Another thing is I need to do some exercises, I need to feel beautiful. And, I am preparing myself on enrolling myself in some human rights NGOs in Syria. Contacting universities in USA for my PhD.

Damascene Details..

Five Things You Don't Know About Me

I've been tagged twice at the same day yesterday..by Qabbani and by Dubai Jazz and since Dubai Jazz's triggers some old memories, I'm gonna start responding to Qabbani's..

I really like this tag, even though it is becoming popular, but I think it is becoming so because of popular responses..people aren't sharing their feelings as much as their habits and very familiar ones.

I cannot speak of the rest of the bloggers, but as for me, the primer reason for blogging is actually sharing my unfamiliar feeling, even though it might seem strange, wacky or offensive to some.

I apologize for any offensive feelings this response might cause, but I am just trying to reflect me.

So here it goes..
Five Things You Don't Know About Me:

1- I joined Blogger (Syrian community for me) as a reaction to my paranoid feelings-I admit- towards the anti-Syrian-people Lebanese-call me pathetic (some have). And unfortunately, my very first few days of blogging wasn't really refreshing, as I was maybe acting as (khosh bosh) with some Syrian bloggers that they totally misread and misinterpretating on my friendship. So that didn't really help.

2- I live literally alone in Lebanon. I do not like most of the people I meet here, not even the Lebanizing (my word) Syrians. My best friends here are: the Egyptian owner of a restaurant I eat at, an Egyptian owner of a grocery store, group of Palestinian refugees in the camps and finally Salim, a Syrian worker working in a restaurant. So I eat, see movies, go to festivals and concerts on my own. It might sound as drama, but I think the drama was when I go out with people that they find it "funny" to tell racist jokes on my people,"open" to make peace with Israel and cooperate with USA, and keep referring to me as a "Lebanese" Syrian.

3- A week ago, as I was in Damascus, I started a new phase. I decided to think in a very positive manner, though it wasn't the first time I attempt to do that, but what's different about this time is that "it is okey if it is fake or stupid", you NEED to smile, be happy and start to throw some effort on that. I am very Arabist, I feel guilty if i laugh, so to be miserable, was one way to "do something". Now, being happy is actually me doing something for that something.

4- I love females..not girls, but females, they don't have to be nude, but I like femininity a lot. I notice females easily in the buses, restaurants, streets. I like to watch move, standing still, doing these features with their bodies. I know why, I think that has to do with some feelings within me that I am not pretty lol..and prettiness to me is not Nanci Ajram, nor Sulaf Fawakherji. It is not a matter of faces, but patterns and manners. And I am not a lesbian, let's just call it, I appreciate good bones;)





5- I cannot date Whites, westerners. Some might be nice, smart and all, but nop, el shab el souri w bas, wel bai'i kollo khass;)






yo'bosh.

Samples of Lebanese Racism towards the Syrian PEOPLE

Of course, when I say Lebanese are racist, I mean ALL of them, except those who are conscious of this very racism. Because if you are a theif, and you are conscious (different from "knowing") that you are the theif, you sieze to be one.

This Lebanese Troops guy posted this post, and he found it hilarious..

Syrian Flat Screen

Old but still hilarious.









Syrian Worker Sleeping Under the bridge
Posted by N10452

While listening to the news, I heard that a Syrian worker was killed when Israel hit a bridge today. According to the news the Syria was sleeping under the bridge.

How stupid can one be?? Israelis have been bombing bridges for the past 20 days now and that Syrian decided to sleep under one ?

I am sorry if he died, but this is hilarious.

Filed under: Humor, Lebanon


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I hope that teaches Syrians to STAY IN SYRIA. He probably was not a worker, but a Hizballah supporter/fighter.




And finally, this....

Only in Syria …

I just cant get enough of those pictures, i am even willing to visit Syria just to take few pics like those.









I realize that i got this pics from a psycho Lebanese Troops guy, but i am gonna go on surfing the Lebanese blogs, cause i am sure, racicsm, exist within.

What Kind of Intelligence I have?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence

You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks. You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent. An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer. Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best. You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Also..I would make a good debator, author;)

نداء عاجل لفك حصار السوريين في بغداد

بما أننا كمدونون سوريون وتعنى مدوناتنا باشغال سورية, اجد من "الشاغل جدا" ان نطلق حمله كالتي أطلقتها بعض المدونات لدعم سجناء الرأي السوريين.

انا هنا, واسترسالا للخطوة الاولى الذي ابداها ريدمان ها انا ذا اضم صوتي لصوته واناشد السلطات السوريه والعراقيه لمساعدة المواطنين السوريين في العراق, كما اطلب من المدونين السوريين ان يضمو اصواتهم الينا.



مناشدة عاجلة للإفراج عن مهجرين سوريين مقيمين في العراق
2007/01/12
علمت اللجنة السورية لحقوق الإنسان بأن القوات الأمريكية في العراق أفرجت مساء أمس الخميس (11/1/2007) عن المحامي محمد بكور الأمين العام للجنة السورية للعمل الديمقراطي بعدما جرد من هاتفه المحمول والمبالغ النقدية التي كانت بحوزته. وفي هذه الأثناء لا يزال المواطنون السوريون الثلاثة الذين اعتقلوا معه يوم الثلاثاء في (9/1/2007) وهم محمد بدوي والدكتور إبراهيم جركس وعثمان بسابسة قيد الاعتقال لدى وزارة الداخلية العراقية.

وفي تطور مثير للقلق علمت اللجنة السورية لحقوق الإنسان من مصدر مطلع في بغداد أن عناصر من الشرطة العراقية مزقت الأوراق الثبوتية للثلاثة المذكورين التي تثبت هويتهم وتثبت صفة اللاجئ التي منحتهم إياها المفوضية السامية لشئون اللاجئين عام 2004 الأمر الذي قد يعرض حياتهم للخطر.

إن اللجنة السورية لحقوق الإنسان تتقدم بمناشدة عاجلة إلى السلطات العراقية لإخلاء سبيل المواطنين الثلاثة وإخلاء سبيل المواطنين السوريين المعتقلين لديها من المهجرين المقيمين في العراق والذين لم يخلوا بقوانين الإقامة، وعدم التعرض لهم.

وتناشد أيضاً المفوضية السامية للاجئين للتدخل من أجل إيجاد حل لمعضلة المواطنين السوريين المقيمين منذ أكثر من ربع قرن في العراق والذين تحرمهم السلطات السورية حقهم في العودة الآمنة إلى بلادهم.

وتناشد كافة المنظمات الإنسانية التدخل من أجل إنقاذ أرواح مدنيين محاصرين في منازلهم ومهددين بالموت أو الاختطاف أو نهب منازلهم في أي وقت بدون مبرر.

اللجنة السورية لحقوق الإنسان




اعتقال المعارض السوري المحامي محمد بكور ولاجئين سوريين اخرين في بغداد
2007/01/11
علم المرصد السوري لحقوق الانسان في اتصال هاتفي من مصدر مقرب من المعارض السوري محمد بكور رئيس اللجنة السورية للعمل الديمقراطي ان عناصر من الشرطة العراقيةاعتقلت يوم الثلاثاء 9/1/2006 المحامي محمد بكور رئيس الهيئة الإدارية للاجئين السوريين في العراق و ابراهيم احمد جركش وعثمان بسابسه ومحمد بدوي ولاجئين سوريين اخرين من شارع حيفا في بغداد وان جمعيهم لاعلاقة لهم باي عمل مسلح وان الاعتقال بسبب مانقلته منظمات حقوقية سورية عن بكور قبل ايام عن مقتل ثمانية لاجئين سوريين في بغداد على يد فرق الموت من بينهم اللواء أحمد عبدالقادر ترمانيني ووجه المتصل نداء استغاثة لانقاذ حياة ماتبقى من اللاجئين السوريين في العراق

ان المرصد السوري لحقوق الانسان يحمل النظام السوري بشدة مسؤولية ما يحصل لمواطنيه في العراق فقد رفض الاستجابة لكافة المناشدات التي طالبته بإصدار عفو عن السوريين اللاجئين في العراق الأمر الذي تسبب في مقتل العشرات منهم وسجن العشرات تعرضوا للتعذيب في مراكز احتجاز مختلفة

وبعد ان بلغت حالة السوريين في العراق مرحلة حرجة وخطرة تهدد بفنائهم جميعا وبعد رفض السلطة السورية السماح لهم بالعودة دون قيد او شرط يناشد المرصد الرئيس السوري بشار الأسد سرعة المبادرة بالسماح بعودتهم إلى أرض الوطن دون قيد او شرط كما نطالب بالوقت ذاته المفوضية السامية لشؤون اللاجئين أن تقوم بواجباتها الأخلاقية والقانونية اتجاه هؤلاء اللاجئين السوريين في العراق

أن حالة السوريين في العراق لا تحتمل التسويف والتأجيل ومن هنا نهيب بمنظمة العفو الدولية وغيرها من هيئات حقوق الإنسان أن تبادر إلى الضغط على الاطراف المعنية في سبيل إيجاد حلول سريعة قبل أن يسقط المزيد من الأبرياء

لندن 9/1/ 2007

المرصد السوري لحقوق الإنسان

How Much Does my Life Worth?

LOL..

Well, I never really thought the question was literal..I guess it was..

So here's how much my life worthes..I guess Bush and his fellow Olmert would love the asnwer;)

Your Life Is Worth...

$737,500

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

How Liberal or Conservative am I?

I made this test that Ha Ana Za made it..and though I found the questions are really simplistic, and proving kind of "either or" answers/question. I just like to waste some time on these kind of things. and regarding on how i view myself, i am very conservative person regarding national matters, but very liberal (so true here only) regarding the social matters..so i think for example that gay/lesbian marriage should be legal.

Your Political Profile:

Overall: 35% Conservative, 65% Liberal

Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

How Liberal Or Conservative Are You?

My Syria: De tails..

More Photos of AUB

Recalling Syrian Hisory: First Day in AUB

Well, well, well..looks like this new year is a sign of a better life for me here in Beirut..

Yesterday I was accepted to join the AUB library subscribers, the library have done everytthing she could do to make me change my mind, 3abath;)


First it is very expensive, 225$ for six months only, and 425$ for a whole year..so i chose the six months option lol..

Then, they told me there is a vat i have to pay 31$, so now i have to pay 256$....elna mashel7al..
Then they asked me to give them a reommendation letter from the Dean of my department..offff, so i did..

Then they told me to wait, and that they'll consider..

Yesterday, i called them, they told me that i was accepted..so YESSSS!

I took a taxi, took my laptop, my camera and i looked at the huge door facing my eyes..students pass..back and forth..they do not know that this building was once called the Syrian Protestant College..SPC..it was founded in 1866, and when the American messionaries started to do its job, they have change it to the American University in Beirut, AUB in 1920..what a shame!!

Of course the website of the university did not mention the Syrian role in founding this college, they do not even recognize the Syrian role at all when they refer to Daniel Bless as the "founder father" of the university!

Actually you can know how un-American this university is, though is was funded by the Americans..you can just take a look at these Arab graduates and the role they played in the Arab Renaissance:

1-Hanan Ashrawi

2- Salim El Huss.

3-Najib Mikati.

4-Antoun Saadeh.

5-Kustantin Zuraik.

6-Nazem El Kudsi.

7- Abd Al Rahman Al Shahabandar.

8-Fares El Khoury.

9-Ghada El Samman.

and the list goes on..

Damn..if Lebanon does not recognize its history, how can it recognize its future?

Damascus Rain...

Damn i'm Ugly..

thanx Restless in Dubai, i thought one thing is fine about me; my looks, now, am wondering;)
but i think the site isn't really nice, i mean they matched guys' faces with mine?? emmm, i think i m offended..and check out the old ladies! i mean come on! and i look nothing like these ladies! tla30 min rassi!
bas yalla, tsalena.

Damascus Winter

Not Ready for New Year, nor for New Me...

I was going to write something about 2006 and the up coming year, but i freaked out.

2007, what will i do with you? or with new me?

i hate my 2006 self..

i am paranoid of the Anglo-Saxons

i am paranoid of Lebanese..

i am certainly not paranoid of Israelis-they do not exist to me;)

i lost my respect to my professor at school..

i lost belief in the academy..

i lost belief in Lebanon..Arabs people..

i am becoming more picky with men..

i am becoming more lonely..

tense relationship with sister..

formal relationship with family..

i go out alone to cafes, restaurants and movies..

i live alone..

but come to think of it, i learned a lot about my sick self..i don't mind being sick, as long as i am functioning-and don't tell me sick people don't function, cause sick people, function the best.

i just need to love and forgive my sickness..

i couldn't do that the last couple years..can i do that in 2007?

i should, i should forgive the American ignorance, the Arab selfishness, the Syrian people's vengeance, my family's shallowness..

and most of all, i need to change my self's negativity..

i need to be whom i vision to be..

i need to start smiling..i need to be that silly and childish again..

i need to forgive my idiocy.

i need to rap up my selves, again.